i am truly struggling with how to handle a situation that has been presenting itself, in various forms, for over two years.
I've written and re-written this post countless times, because honestly, i don't know how to address it.
this is about the weekly challenge in its current form, the way i do it, write it, and how to go forward in the future.
Obviously, the internet is big enough for everyone. When i began this challenge, i had no idea that the challenge would take me in this direction, that it would become what it's become, that i would call so many of you dear friends.
I try very hard to put out a new challenge for you all to do each and every week. Some weeks are more challenging than others because my life is so crazy with the boys and Artoo's health problems. But i don't want to get into that because even when i tell you about his health, i really tell you very little. I don't want this blog to be about that, it's sort of my oasis where i come to 'get away' from my life. if that makes sense.
Over the past two years, i have put in countless hours to bring this blog to you. Any of you who blog regularly know what a time commitment it can be.
When the first other weekly challenge site popped up, i was flattered in a way. Erin's Zendala Dare has been successful and she's a real peach - super love her. So, i thought - okay, Zendala's are gonna be her thing, and i've not done a zendala challenge since (or at least, i don't think i have). It was a conscious decision i made based on the idea that the internet is, in fact, big enough for everyone.
Since that time, my little 'challenge pool' from which i draw from has been getting smaller and smaller.
Zendala, Art Journal, ZIA...
The newest challenge offerings have been Duotangle and (the latest) Monotangle challenges. I really don't know how i feel about these, because i know for a fact that those terms were both coined in my basement while writing my own weekly challenges. I have to say that it's really awesome that those Zentangle terms have gone out into the world and become part of the Zentangle vernacular, but i'd be lying if i said that it doesn't leave a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach.
in fact, it's giving me great anxiety. As i write this, my palms are sweaty, there are about a billion butterflies doing Zumba in my belly, and i feel like the world's biggest jerk.
Am i upset that they there are other challenges out there? No!
More power to you!! Challenge away.
A few months back i had an email from a lady who was interested in writing her own weekly challenge and she was looking for help and ideas. I told her i couldn't and wouldn't discourage her from that, but that she she should ask herself if she could offer something new that's not already offered.
There's a feeling of sadness, though, almost like betrayal but maybe not as strong as that. A feeling like maybe you don't think i'm doing a good enough job maybe?
what can i do? Is it necessary to Trademark the terms Monotangle and Duotangle? Does it need to come to that? i don't want that.
But my first reaction to hearing about these challenges (thanks to those of you who emailed me to tell me about them) was "Now i can't do Monotoangles or Duotangle challenges on my own blog?" and it made me sad. Frankly, i love doing both of those things, they are my favourite, and it kind of feels like something has been taken away from me, albeit unintentionally.
I don't know. I don't know what to do, and i don't want to keep thinking about this or worrying about it, and i don't want to upset anyone or hurt anyone's feelings. I don't want you to think i'm being childish or selfish (i'm trying very hard not to be)
I just want to be able to continue doing my challenges.... and it's kind of hard to come up with a new challenge each week, let alone limiting myself because of other blogs.
I read this quote today:
What gives the artist real prestige is his imitators. - Igor StravinskyI kind of feel like it applies. I suppose i should just be proud that my challenges have been successful.
i'm going to continue to issue monotangle challenges, and duotangle challenges when the mood strikes, and whatever comes into my head on Saturday night while i write.
I am going to stay off those blogs and just know that should there be a repeat it's purely coincidental - and hope that you all still love me, and pray that i'm doing the right thing.